what an unsettling feel this is, waiting for a job confirmation.
and i really do want this job.
the suspense, the wait.. almost unbearable.
makes one feel really edgy.

i dont know what else i can do if i dont get this job. continue with my part times?
i am really getting sick of not doing any real work actually.
too long a break i took.

argh....

i really rarely blog.
it's been 2 months since my last post and i am only blogging now because i am rather bored...
so far... recently...
proceeding at a pace tt i never knew it was possible for me. how is it possible to fall for a person so fast and hard?
listening to "the blower's daughter" and he's singing "can't take my mind off you..." and yeps. it feels exactly like that.
as if every minute spent together is not enough. so sticky. i dont like being sticky!! Rarr. i shall strive not to be sticky! :)
feels pudgy. time to start exercising a bit. haha.
i am still rather aimless now. jobs ae not coming my way. neither is my school applications. argh.
it's not that i WANT to be so aimless and slack. but rather i have no much choice?
feels... stagnated. again. the last time i said this i got into a relationship. what will happen this time round? haha.
the sunset is beautiful but alas, it lasts but a moment.

under the weather post.

maybe because i am under the weather, i am also thinking in a under-the-weather sort of way...

i am doubting, and feeling as if it is all surreal again. maybe because i stepped into this too fast?
i feel like i sort of coerced him into this. no idea if it is true, if i did really did force him into taking this step so soon. but that's how i think sometimes.

this is one relationship i am definitely not confident of... for one, i'd never felt this way for a person before. i am used to being the one much more loved than i do. and therein lies my insecurity this time round probably. because i still do not know for sure where we stand.

a whole new chapter. not even a full month yet... lets see where it will take us. =)

don't like being sick. don't like being like this in general.
I pride myself for being independent!

I'll say a little prayer for you - Arethra Franklin

The moment I wake up,
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair now,
And wondering what dress to wear now,
I say a little prayer for you.

**Forever and ever, you'll stay in my heart and I will love you.
Forever and ever, we never will part, oh how I love you.
Together forever, that's how it must be.
To live without you would only mean heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think about us, dear.
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time,
And all through my coffee-break time,
I say a little prayer for you.

**Chorus
My darling, believe me,
For me there is no one but you!
Please love me too,
And I'm in love with you,
Answer my prayer now, baby.

**Chorus

i tried to upload photos for my sisters'blog but oh well. didnt succeed.

i am finally almost out of Alexhosp! i think last day shld be on the 23rd to help them with the christmas party preparations..

christmas is coming!
i'd always like christmas. somehow. despite knowing how commercialized it's becoming, or the fact that i am NOT a christian - so no religious meaning for me... But maybe it is the commercialization that i am enjoying. haha.

the downside would be sending the cards out. which i am somewhat lazy to do... usually till after christmas would my friends receive their cards. Actually it is probably because i dont know what to write. =P

usually i prefer just drawing the msg, or quoting some lines.

Ahh. and this year... i HAVENT DONE ANYTHING YET!!!

and some shopping to do.

this year's christmas eve should be something. double connotations for me. =)

Whine-y Post.

I am so bored at work that i started a blog again.
After deleting god knows how many in the past.

Tho, I need to be a bit sneaky typing all these in when I am sitting in the hot spot
(I.E. Outside CEO's office - doesn't help when he likes to keep an open door... which means I can't hear him open the door... And peering over my shoulders...)
Scary thought.

What's there to rant about now.
Ah... I hate transcipting.
Yup.
Doesnt help much even after a friend recommended transcripting tools (free of course...). My ears are hurting from the earphones. My brain is aching from their incoherency.
And of course people who like to add "you know", at the end of every pause... - NO I DON'T KNOW! stop saying "you know?"
or another classic - "last thumb, when I...." - it should be TIME, say T--im-e. Last time, not the last thumb! or "Thumb-table". Yup. what a big table you have. Thumbsized.

Seriously, Rarr.

Alright, so life is not all Rarr. There are good stuff going on. But who whines about gd stuff? Not me. And my blog will probably be for me to whine. ALOT >60% of the time? Before i whine the ears off ppl. i shall whine ur eyes off. =P